All the undone things

This morning I realized I disappeared after venting about how rough the first day back at school was. Like maybe the thing ate me whole and pooped me out again. And while there were moments that felt that way, I did survive the first week of school for the new year. I definitely left the …

First day back blues

Today marked our first day back at school, in what seems like forever.  Maybe it was, perhaps a little too long.  I'm always a little slow to get started when we take a break.  But throwing a major injury to my knee, and my husband being out of town, and then surgery...well admittedly it took …

1 week around the mountain

A few weeks back I pondered what the Lord has in store for me as I looked at my third ACL reconstruction. You can read those musings here. And now that I am a whole week out, I've already seen some transformation in my life. So I thought I would share, because, well, why the …

Looking through the lens of inadequacy

I found myself sitting on the floor of the laundry room, weeping. Door closed, but not locked, because I wanted someone to come check on me...eventually. The emotion had been building all morning (it was only 930) and I knew a breakdown was coming, but as I sat there crying, I realized there was a …

When it rains…

When it rains it pours. Right? At least that can be said of my life right now. Yesterday I had surgery. Bright and early. Or maybe not so bright. Because I had to be there before the sunrise. Surgery went well. Thank God I only needed one! We knew it was a toss up whether …

When pain comes crashing in

I had planned to write a cute little story about how we celebrated my youngest daughter turning 4. And I'm sure I will share the joys we experienced at some point. But the thing about life is...it's never quite what you expect. Never as simple as the plans we lay out for ourselves. Tonight's story …

One more trip around the mountain

The official word is in...my ACL is torn.  For the third time. Two weeks ago I played tag with my kids.  I stopped suddenly to change directions and felt it.  The same pain.  That intense feeling of your ligaments being shredded.  By some miracle, I didn't scream, or punch anything (as is my go to …

Slaying Giants

You see this guy right here... ...his name is Red.  And he is, you guessed it, a RED Iguana.  Also. I am aware of how dirty that cage is...it's on tomorrow's to do list, because I'm Just. Too. Tired. We used to have a green iguana.  His name was Diggler.  And he was pretty rad.  …

Moments

How I spend my days matters. Because Years are made by moments. And I not very good at managing my time. Sure I can keep all my humans fed and clothed. And my house, is generally clean. In that well lived in kind of way. My mind knows that I should be productive. But my …

Starts that aren’t so fresh

New Years are always such a good reminder of a fresh start. A moment to dream. To ponder what has been and how you would do differently given the opportunity. And I always start a new year with worthy goals and best of intentions.